Too Quickly

I always wanted more children. I have two daughters but God knew what was in my future.

When I became a nanny in the autumn of 2016 there was one boy, A, and he was 16 months old. It was love at first site. I knew God had brought me to this town to love and care for this child. The following autumn another boy, O joined the family in September. And in January 2021, a beautiful daughter came along.

I knew time raising my daughters had gone quickly, but for some unknown reason I had the idea time would move more slowly now. I was in for a rude awakening. Time had sped up, not slowed down.

My bonus grandchildren are now almost 10, 7.5 and 4. I swear they were just babies. I had several years before I was to be 65, lots of time ahead of me. Time does not cooperate and slow down during the good times or speed up in the bad times.

So here I am with no more babies, bonus grandchildren and grandchildren growing so quickly right before my eyes.

It’s a joy to watch them grow and learn, but it leaves a yearning in my heart for times that have past.