Is a little chaos actually good for us?
Hmm interesting question because I’ve never had a perfectly calm life. There have been small parts that have gone smoothly but just when I think all is well there is a hiccup. Most of the times the hiccups are small but periodically something comes along and knocks you for a loop.
Because of my ex husband’s behavior I I was in constant turmoil. My chest would grow tight, a knot would form in my stomach and I lived like I was in an emotional torture chamber. I never had a peaceful night of sleep. It got worse when the police called the house looking for him. The detective told me in a very condescending tone, “you don’t know your husband.” Needless to say I was in a state of panic and the remnants remain today. I lived a kind of internal chaos everyday.
Chaos may make us appreciate the smooth times when they come but after having lived the way I did, I would prefer no chaos.
My life on an unexpected path 
“This is beautifully vulnerable—you’ve perfectly captured the difference between passing ‘hiccups’ and the kind of deep, exhausting turmoil that makes you truly crave absolute peace.”
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