Posted in divorce, Experience, God, Uncategorized, WordPress

And the door remains closed

Received an email today that said I didn’t get the job. I’ve been looking for three years 2 months. Everyone is full of suggestions and trust me, I’ve tried them all. God clearly has plans for me that currently don’t include working. I hope He knows I have very limited time to find a job. If I don’t get something that pays at least $40,000 a year, I will have to store all of my furniture and personal belongings. Then I will move about 1600 miles away and in with my mom.

Now I love my mom but I’m an adult woman who hasn’t lived at home for 34 years. Her home is small and full of her things. She shouldn’t have to readjust her entire home to accommodate me. 

I feel ashamed and humiliated. After 30 years of marriage, followed by 3 years of divorce I still can’t support myself. No matter how often and how long I pray, I can’t seem to figure out God’s purpose in this. Why would he leave me unable to support myself? I don’t understand.

I have less than two months to find something. Mid-April I have to give my notice at my apartment and without a job I will have to leave when my lease is up. 


I am always learning something new about life. My life is made richer by friends, family, travel, experiences, books and hobbies.

3 thoughts on “And the door remains closed

  1. I’ve been there and honestly you would have thought the world was going to end but now I truly believe God was preparing me for my new life….I have a new husband, new house and I am in a new city…. Keep the faith and never give up.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. I’m so sorry, Dede. I don’t have any advice, but I want you to know that I will be praying for you. I know that after all the horrible things that I have lived through that writing about it has helped. You are being very strong by being vulnerable and sharing your life. Thanks for writing it.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. God does not give more than you can handle. If after 30 years he sends you home there must be something there for you to do. God bless you, may he keep you healthy and warm in his arms. He will lead the way. Faith

    Liked by 1 person

Penny for your thoughts

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s