I’m throwing in the towel. God has sent me a very clear message and it’s time I give up. My husband dumped me after I forgave him time and time again for betraying me and our vows. He has gone on to a younger girlfriend although she looks like the wicked witch of the west. He bought her a house nicer than anything he ever bought me and he spend more time with her brats than he ever spent with his own daughters. In fact he has completely disowned them and so have his parents? Why you ask? Because they refuse to interact with a man who is an alcoholic and sexual deviant.
I’ve sought employment for three years and every time the door slams in my face. I received two more rejections yesterday. I’m done. I want nothing more to do with anything and anyone. My girls while they struggle financially have strong self esteem and deep faith in God. Clearly a God who has chosen to abandon me. That’s fine. I accept it. I’m not going to fight it anymore.
My life on an unexpected path 
God will never leave you or forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6. It is straight out of His Word, which is absolute truth. I think the message you are getting is straight from the enemy. Don’t let him win.
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God has left me. I am certain of it.
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Sweetie, God has NOT abandoned you!
Just remember you can’t see the big picture; neither can I, but God can and does! Maybe all those doors are slamming in your face because you need to go in a different direction. I know you feel like garbage right now,(I’ve been there too) but it’s just not true! Don’t you dare give up! You keep right on fighting.
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Trust me God has made it perfectly clear that He has abandoned me. I kept the faith until yesterday. I’m finished trying to get better because things are only getting worse. Thanks for caring.
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Trust me, He hasn’t!
So what are you going to do instead of trying to get better?
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I’m giving up.
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I’m sorry to hear that. Well, I haven’t so I’m going to just keep right on praying for you. You see, my God doesn’t abandon His children. He may not always give them what they want, but that is because He has something much better in mind.
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Well my God isn’t even giving be basic respect. He’s stripped me of everything even my will to live.
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You know, Dede, there is nothing that I can say that will change how you feel; only you can do that. Know that I will be your friend and I will keep right on praying for you. I wish we lived closer! 😦
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And if homelessness and being abandoned is what God wants for me then I’d prefer to go it alone.
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PS if it makes you feel better I got a P45 and an electricity bill on Christmas eve😂I knew my job was finishing, but still, timing, eh?
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What’s a p45? I haven’t had a job since 1984
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I know how you feel. I get very depressed so a lot of the time it’ s like I’ ve got no will or energy left. The best thing to do is just ride it out, be as nice to yourself as you can be and just focus on the here and now. I’ ve started keeping a thought diary, and working through cognitive behavioural therapy techniques. All small things, but part of an armoury.I hope you feel better, and remember when you get depressed or frustrated, you’ re not alone. If you get the chance take a look at the website Moodjuice or try some CBT worksheets, which are about changing negative thought patterns. Good luck!
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