“We read to know we’re not alone.” -William Nicholson, Shadowlands
I read everyday. It’s not unusual for me to read one book in two days. I read because I am alone. I am always alone. Except for the group I meet with three times a week, I see no one and I talk to no one.
Isolation is not a good thing but it is an addictive thing. It creeps up on you unexpectedly. One day turns to two and two turns into three and before you know it a week, a month goes by.
I never intended to be in this place of loneliness. This deep, dark well of drowning sadness. Someone born without a soul stole mine. And I won’t steal someone’s soul because I no longer have one. That is cruel and evil.
Everyday gets more difficult. Everyday is longer than the last. Everyday I think it will be my last.
2 thoughts on “Day 15”
I’ve been there, and it’s hard. I still am halfway there…my prayers for you.
This breaks my heart. I wish I could reach through the 1s and 0s or whatever it is that makes the Internet work and give you a hug. It’s not the same as having someone to talk to in person, but please message me through my contact page just to chat about whatever.